I know it sounds strange, but I tend to make it sound like I’m always putting myself down. I’ve actually had people say things like “You’re better than that.” and “Don’t eat that. You don’t know where it’s been.”

One time someone asked me “Why are you always up at night?” My response was simply “I’m too ugly to be up during the day.”

So why do I do it? I don’t know. Maybe it’s a coping mechanism or a deflection for if I don’t really have a better answer. I have a strange sense of humor. I suppose if I had to work on myself and put it in a list of things to change it would be about 8th or 9th on the list. Usually after people get to know me, they realize that I’m not serious about it or too much else for that matter.


One thing I will be serious for, and always will is that some people are really hurting and need help. If you know someone like that, take a moment of your time and try to get them the help they need. This world has lost alot of good people to depression and suicide.

If you or someone you know needs help you can call a crisis line for free. by calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255). there is a trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7. If you or someone else has a crisis, whether or not you or they are thinking about suicide, please call the Lifeline.